It's been a busy few months. I've been trying to figure out a few things in my life, but unfortunately it seems that these things don't want to be figured
out yet. Oh well. There's a time and place for everything. But I feel I'm ready for a significant change in life now. Could be a change of place, could
be a change of occupation, or could simply be a change of attitude, or perhaps all of the mentioned. But I'm ready for something different. Something new
and challenging. There is this desire to do something that is fullfilling, to do something that gives me a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment. Doesn't
have to be a financial gain (though that's always good!), but to do something that I can look back upon and say "Damn, I did good!". But this enthusiasm
of doing something has in the past always been very short-lived. I get sucked into the daily routine of things and these thoughts get pushed to the back
of my mind.
Ever felt that the world is moving forward and you're still stuck in the same place? I guess that's what I'm feeling of late. Is this what it's like to
be getting old? Or is this what it means to be getting used to what life has dealt you? Perhaps I'm in my comfort zone and haven't ventured out for a while,
but the thing is, i'm uncomfortable in my comfort zone. Or perhaps I've become comfortable in my uncomfortable zone. I dunno. But whatever the case is,
it's been a struggle for far too long.
It's time to *seriously* shake things up around here.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Ring a bell.
It's funny how unexpected free time comes when you least anticipate it. Well, I guess that's why they call it "unexpected". I've been using "too busy" as
an excuse for not updating this blog (among several other things) and now here I am, sitting in lab in the middle of the day, in the middle of the week,
typing out a post about ... well, nothing. Irony seems to be a consistent theme in my life, huh?
So what exactly am I doing here? Well, I was supposed to be in lecture, but the kindly professor decided not to show up. I could've just taken the two
hours off and gone and done something else, but like a good child, I thought, "I'm sure there's work for me to do in lab - I better not waste this time
doing something pointless" and promptly strolled on over to lab. Only to find that pretty much everyone has gone out (to lunch, to do work on some other
floor, who knows?) and that my supervisor isn't around to give me work either. Again, much to my own surprise, I refused to be deterred by the apparent
lack of work and scavenged around, looking for a textbook I'd been reading last night so as to continue my studies. Surprise, surprise - I couldn't find
it anywhere in bag. Seems like if you're really intent on doing some useful work, it will do its best to hide itself from you. Oh, well. Can't complain.
It's surprising how little time it takes to get out of touch with blogging. Just a few days ago, I was sitting at home, words pouring out of my mouth
hands, thoughts flowing like a raging river in my head. And now here I am, unable to think of anything to write. It's not like I lead an uneventful life.
And that's not even the problem - I can think of a lot of posts that I've written based on completely ordinary, uneventful things. The problem, I think,
lies in the fact that once you've lost touch, nothing seems "blog-worthy" anymore. You start losing the ability to look at the world around you from a
blogger's perspective, and that, in turn, makes it less appealing to write about anything. It takes a supreme effort to get yourself to write that one
pointless post, that one post that serves the sole purpose of getting you to open up that blog page and type something, and then, before you know it, you're
back in the groove and writing as though you haven't written in ages (which, technically, is true).
This pointless post had better achieve that goal, but I’m still waiting for my mind to Ring a bell.
an excuse for not updating this blog (among several other things) and now here I am, sitting in lab in the middle of the day, in the middle of the week,
typing out a post about ... well, nothing. Irony seems to be a consistent theme in my life, huh?
So what exactly am I doing here? Well, I was supposed to be in lecture, but the kindly professor decided not to show up. I could've just taken the two
hours off and gone and done something else, but like a good child, I thought, "I'm sure there's work for me to do in lab - I better not waste this time
doing something pointless" and promptly strolled on over to lab. Only to find that pretty much everyone has gone out (to lunch, to do work on some other
floor, who knows?) and that my supervisor isn't around to give me work either. Again, much to my own surprise, I refused to be deterred by the apparent
lack of work and scavenged around, looking for a textbook I'd been reading last night so as to continue my studies. Surprise, surprise - I couldn't find
it anywhere in bag. Seems like if you're really intent on doing some useful work, it will do its best to hide itself from you. Oh, well. Can't complain.
It's surprising how little time it takes to get out of touch with blogging. Just a few days ago, I was sitting at home, words pouring out of my mouth
hands, thoughts flowing like a raging river in my head. And now here I am, unable to think of anything to write. It's not like I lead an uneventful life.
And that's not even the problem - I can think of a lot of posts that I've written based on completely ordinary, uneventful things. The problem, I think,
lies in the fact that once you've lost touch, nothing seems "blog-worthy" anymore. You start losing the ability to look at the world around you from a
blogger's perspective, and that, in turn, makes it less appealing to write about anything. It takes a supreme effort to get yourself to write that one
pointless post, that one post that serves the sole purpose of getting you to open up that blog page and type something, and then, before you know it, you're
back in the groove and writing as though you haven't written in ages (which, technically, is true).
This pointless post had better achieve that goal, but I’m still waiting for my mind to Ring a bell.
Wellcome again, with Bated breath
First let me apologize for going away without information, without notice, without this, that, and whole lot alike.
So, you might be wondering where I was, what I had been doing during these days, and stuff.
If you were really thinking it somewhere, means the the blog is getting some rage, which is fantastic. Isn’t it?
Anyways, The reasons that I was farther than blogging were numerous, and all they have thumped collectively
First, I got stuck in a software that I was developing for a Canada based company. Logics were all correct, yet the outputs were not much loved.
I’ve tried this, that, and whole lot of all, yet no remarkable success, then I suddenly saw a dream at around 2:45 in morning. I was coding something there, and when I found it what, it was the solution of the same issue where I was stucked up.
Yeh, when I’ve typed those 10-11 lines on my PC, it executed!
Man, this is unbelievable, even though I’ve seen a number of such dreams where I code, develop softwares, make analysis and more, but this was special, as there was no solution in my head before I’ve seen this dream, then where did it come from?
I really don’t know, may be I’ll have to find a psychiatrist to research on it.
From Next day, exams were starting. So Naturally, I too have done the same what any other human would do “study”!
I’ve studied, studied, and studied for a few days, and hey, I’ve got a good outcome as well, all the exams were fairly good!
As soon as it ended, the festive season of diwali was approaching here.
I’ve rushed to shop something for my self, and even I’ve shopped a lot this season.
Then the festive season arrived finally, so I’ve got indulged into celebration.
Had some great hangouts, sweets, meets, treats, and those pleasure stuffs that combines only once in a year.
Done a whole lot of fun, and as soon as it got ended, I’m here, writing this blog post, without even worrying, that I’ve haven’t touched the books from past week or more, haven’t coded a single line from around 10-12 days, haven’t played guitar from some 15 or more days, haven’t watched movie for around a month, ggosh, it’s an ever growing list, believe me.
The point is, that the days when I was away from this blog, were assorted with variety of substances, diversities of flavors, and copious emotions.
Very seldom you get such amazing days, so my heart is filled and thrilled.
well above all, I’m back to the paradise again, and so as you.
What’s say? Let’s wish each others belated wishes of diwali, and welcome with Bated breaths.
So, you might be wondering where I was, what I had been doing during these days, and stuff.
If you were really thinking it somewhere, means the the blog is getting some rage, which is fantastic. Isn’t it?
Anyways, The reasons that I was farther than blogging were numerous, and all they have thumped collectively
First, I got stuck in a software that I was developing for a Canada based company. Logics were all correct, yet the outputs were not much loved.
I’ve tried this, that, and whole lot of all, yet no remarkable success, then I suddenly saw a dream at around 2:45 in morning. I was coding something there, and when I found it what, it was the solution of the same issue where I was stucked up.
Yeh, when I’ve typed those 10-11 lines on my PC, it executed!
Man, this is unbelievable, even though I’ve seen a number of such dreams where I code, develop softwares, make analysis and more, but this was special, as there was no solution in my head before I’ve seen this dream, then where did it come from?
I really don’t know, may be I’ll have to find a psychiatrist to research on it.
From Next day, exams were starting. So Naturally, I too have done the same what any other human would do “study”!
I’ve studied, studied, and studied for a few days, and hey, I’ve got a good outcome as well, all the exams were fairly good!
As soon as it ended, the festive season of diwali was approaching here.
I’ve rushed to shop something for my self, and even I’ve shopped a lot this season.
Then the festive season arrived finally, so I’ve got indulged into celebration.
Had some great hangouts, sweets, meets, treats, and those pleasure stuffs that combines only once in a year.
Done a whole lot of fun, and as soon as it got ended, I’m here, writing this blog post, without even worrying, that I’ve haven’t touched the books from past week or more, haven’t coded a single line from around 10-12 days, haven’t played guitar from some 15 or more days, haven’t watched movie for around a month, ggosh, it’s an ever growing list, believe me.
The point is, that the days when I was away from this blog, were assorted with variety of substances, diversities of flavors, and copious emotions.
Very seldom you get such amazing days, so my heart is filled and thrilled.
well above all, I’m back to the paradise again, and so as you.
What’s say? Let’s wish each others belated wishes of diwali, and welcome with Bated breaths.
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